Poetry, Panic and Methylenedioxymethamphetamine
To the start-gun shot of thunderous uproar, abandoned pathways and lucrative corruption - 2015 pummelled our senses and sensibilities with relentless absurdity.
Not always destructive absurdity but often, at least, uncomfortable. Fear not A redundant covering of past year events and news, I wasn't paying enough attention to provide the level of insight necessary for self satisfaction. Instead. I want to thank the year of past for the challenges and the wake up.
I am A better man and improving, whenever I so choose.
I want to draw on a few sentiments I absorbed and attempted to project out upon assimilation - as these notions/ideas/perspectives inspired me to re-assume my role as the driver of my story.
You are sane and in fact reacting accordingly if old guards and traditional behaviour leave you house bound or feeling hopeless. I still find days hard to navigate if I am aware of problems with the solution of 'Well if those people stopped acting like cunts, the problem would be gone' it is these next few 'sentiments' that drag A coal onto my inner-hearth and get that blaze stoked.
I am liable to do an edit and reprise my list but as it stands, these notions represent A 'Coming to my senses' or 'de-constructed self'.
Many of these notions are obvious, which is the other major thing I am coming to terms with - The obvious is forgettable. The obvious is essential and A firm grasp is grounding. These are the common sense beliefs of several different cultures, so I must be onto something.
I want to thank all that have given me support through my personal struggles with Mental Illness and have forgiven me for the last few years of absence. I have been welcomed back by the true people in my life with such Love and openness that I am humbled by their friendship and capacity for Kindness.
In the very recent past my reality has been redefined by the presence of additional beautiful entities. I am grateful for their existence and look forward to learning more about them and with them.
To A year of delightful defiance! To A year of unconditional Love! To A year of exceptional people, angelic chemicals, diabolic tunes and A bank of new experiences!
- Ryan Dickinson